Sean,
thanks for your care. Last week i went to do my biosy, i stay in hospital for half a day to take a sample out from my nose. this friday 30 th of november, the doctor will let me know whether it is benign or not. This few day just like waitng a death penalty whether is fall on me or not> i read many articles in re this matter.
i even read some authors from Taiwan, named lim shyang kong, he seemed to teach people how to take away the toxin from the body..... ah... now i so much appreciate the health of individual.... i saw people smoking... i really like to tell how painful if you dignosis as cancer... or eat healthy....
Now i think i cannot sleep well... everything just come so sudden. i thought i am really healthy... i exercise... i eat well... but is still fall on me.... hopefully tomorrow report will make me suffer as minimun as possbile.... now i hate to listen the tahitian guy he also have sufffered form Cancer... but now he is recovered now... Sean.. take care yourself for me...
take care
douglas
20071129
HI all,
Maybe some of you guys know me well or others thinking where is this guy from. Let me introduce to those do not know me.
Borne in the year of horse, age about three turns plus a bit , only bit of years add on, please be mercy. Live in Auckland , but heart in Asia.
Like travelling and now starting to learn how to live life to the full, hopefully do not take too long to acheive the truthliness of life.
To those know me, please if someone mentioned about me, please be kind to introduce my best side of my characters. Thanks , i will shout you guys a lunch.
Chinese New Year is fast approaching now.Wish all of you have a safe and healthy year.
Please take care.
Regards
Douglas
20080128
Dear Sally,
thanks for calling me.
I am now battling against my illness. as i told you that Dr found out a tumour in my brain, initially they thought is a benign tumour , but since the tumour so aggressive, it is hard to say. After i did my surgery, i am now doing my raditherapy for six weeks. two more day will be finished my treatment, but my condition seemed to be no improving, so i need to go thru a set of other treatment.
Sally, life is really hard to predict, all the while i think iam pretty strong phisically, but now i am admit that it is hard to say nowaday. but i will not give up, because i cannot yeild to this illness. i need to tell myself, i have many things to accomplish, i need more time to survive, so everyday, i live stronger than the day before. like Sean Lim said..... fuck the tumour.... i will get over it. Otherwise i will enjoy everyday left over to me... anyway, i will not give up... because i want to visit you in America... i want to see the world,.... also i want ot see your kid get marry.... see you grandson and granddaughter.... i will not give up...
one day we stay in federal hotel again.... and chit chat the old time....
i will not drop a tear.... again.... i promise..whenever
please take care yourself for me
love
douglas
20080602
偶而会不知情底下非常失落.
驾着车到处溜看到四处都是有情人而自己却一个人,实在不忍的叹了一声.术了, 可能这是命吧
今天和一位从杜拜回来的朋友到密宗佛堂走一趟.他是虔诚信徒. 下个星期是开光所以被邀请. 可能不去了.
在佛堂里有一位年轻的师父耒自马耒西亚, 在这里相当一段日子了, 之前在台湾修行. 希望他好....
好好的过生活
累了
20090308
Today i was in Elizerbert Square to enjoy my cup of Latte, very bustling, i believe, maybe today is earth day. I signed on the World Earth advertisement board, and also many , many earth lovers.......
Maybe because of you, the earth is so beautiful, wishing u happy every single day.
And also today is the opening ceremony of buddha conference in Wuxi, and closing ceremony in Taipei. I have forgotten the slogan of this buddha festival, but as i remmember it is meaningful enought for us as the sentinent being to appreciate and thankful for being able to live healthy and happily everyday.
Once again, Happy birthday my beloved Earth.... may your live is endlessly....
20090328
Sean,
It is June again.
Funny feeling setting into my mind, kind of hard to describe. I wonder whether is the loneliness make me unreasonable upset. Hopefully it is just a glimpse of my life.
June, again is unrelentably cool and freezing. Unfortunately, it is only cool and cool. Really hope it can drop a fews drops of snow into Auckland, so that we can enjoy the snow in inner city. Autumn just gone quickly, i am unable to catch a fews pic of the leafy city.
My friend, please take care yourself...hope to see u soon. I just wonder how Kok Foo doing, i hope he can brave to meet all the obstacles in his life. If i remember tonite i will pray for him. Starting missing his laughs and also his company. I start refresh the times we spent in Perth. Hope he is well
20090602
廿十年实在不是短时间 一直的为生活而拼 虽然生活较安定 但却输了健康 只是怨言 如和其他人 我还术什么 只是偶而的这里不舒服 但不为生活而忧 我术很幸运了 我应而感恩
一直以耒都是自己去面对 所以希望偶而借你的耳朵耒听我的倾诉
真的 人生那有几多个十年 在我剩余的生命 我应活的更精彩
对了 月华还好吗 希望她早日康复 麻烦你传达我的祝福 也望您好
多笑
祯祥
20090718
Sean,
During the last phone conversation we only talk three talk four, however, i forgotting to tell you something in regard of Joshua. What i meant is that if financial permitted, It is not harm to seek some opinion from Singapore Hospital. How? is to tell the surgery Doctor to tender back the patchy stuff( I.e.
tumour), so that it can be tested by the lab in Singapore. I remember i talk you before, that it is useless to do this step, but after a secong thought, i think to be safe than sorry. Of course if it tested to be benign, it might be abundunt.
Anyhow, hopefully it is turn up to be OK. take care
Douglas
20100110
还好吗? 这里天气冷极了 还好 在这里呆了廿十年了 都习惯了
最近不知道为什么情绪波动很大, 只知道自己时间有限, 赶紧把自已应该办东西办妥.
那也应该了, 觉得自己的身体每况愈下, 所以特别的珍惜与家人的相处. 很抱歉咱们的距离太远了, 但愿咱们还有相聚的时间.
也不知道为什么最近哭的很凶.......不想把这些情绪上的问题放在facebook, 不想让家人及朋友担心, 唯有向你倾诉一番, 过后一切都好.
20100601
你的离去仿佛意料之中 所以当我接获你离去的消息时 我的内心似乎出奇的平静 并不是我莫不关心 我也没有硬撑 于其表露在外表的伤心 我更清楚这"一切有为法, 如梦幻泡影, 如雾亦如电, 应作如是观”, 离开了那逐渐败坏的驱壳对你来说何尝不是一种解脱 而且你我曾经许诺 咱们还会再见的 不是吗? U Take K :)
P/S 谢谢你出现在我这生命里 唯一的遗憾就是对你的回忆到此为止 不能再加了。
20120106
