望着。。。

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如果有来世的话，希望还能碰到你。。。

十三岁那年，在初中一开始认识他。开始时与他不熟，后来升上初中三的时候，他被安排坐在我后面隔壁那一行的座位，咱门俩开始交谈，熟络起来。接下来的日子，咱们的足迹北上南下，到处Lepak，常常打开天窗说亮话，说将来要过怎样怎样的生活，说别人的是与非，甚至说着伤害彼此的话，说。。。屈指一算那已经是29年前的事儿了。中学毕业后没多久，我返回家乡照顾我父亲。后来他选择移居他国，在离开马来西亚之前，只身跑来槟城与我告别。那个时候，曾经为此难过。老土也要说的一句话《天下无不散之宴席》，那个时候正值“花样年华”的我对未来充满了憧憬，难过也只不过是那么的一阵子而已。

有一年约他在悉尼会合。大家说好了在悉尼市内的一家酒店碰面。那天早上经过了长途飞行的我抵达时，拖着疲累的身体及行李进入酒店内查询，才发觉他没有入住。本来以为可以睡上一觉的我开始有点慌了，打了通长途电话给他姐姐，他姐姐说他已出国。我的心情开始纳闷他到底上那去了呢？是不是地点搞错了？正当我正在懊恼要怎么做的时候，他竟施施然的出现在酒店的门口。似乎很高兴看到我惊慌失措的摸样。我又气又恼，心里嘀咕着《好好玩咩》，正拿他没辙。

更有一次与他在曼谷会面，就在咱们下榻的酒店对面有一卖炸鸡的摊贩。说真的，咱俩都喜欢吃炸得香脆的鸡块，所以每每从外返回酒店时，咱们都会驻足光顾。也许这个大婶做事总是手脚迅速，赤手空拳就拿起鸡块入袋。他见状觉得有点不卫生。后来灵机一触，就在咱们离去的那天，咱俩跑去买了两只食物夹子再去光顾那个卖炸鸡的摊贩，就在那个大婶要赤手拿起鸡块入袋时，咱们立刻拿出夹子送给她。那个大婶愣了一下，结果会心一笑的拿起夹子夹起鸡块入袋。虽说咱们作弄了那个大婶，然而离开曼谷的那一天，充满了大婶和咱俩的笑声。

我曾经开玩笑的和他说，“假如。。。假如有一天你要是比我先去另外一个世界，记得在那等我。轮到我的时候，我会来找你。”他答道，“才不呢，我会赶快投胎回来作你的小朋友。”依然还是鬼马如故，印象中好像都不曾见他严肃过。

前一阵子他说身体开始觉得不适。在上个星期回来了。咱们俩约定旧地重游，北上槟城。那天在Gurney Drive，咱们依然谈笑风生。在洋溢着笑声的下午，他忽道：“如果有来世的话，希望还能碰到你。”当下的我吨了下，耸耸肩，露出一幅不以为然的表情。其实只是不想让他看透在我心深处堆积的悲伤。现在每每想起这句话，我都哭了。真他妈的鸡蛋糕，认识他29年，这次真的被他弄哭了。

It must have been cold there in my shadow,

to never have sunlight on your face.

You were content to let me shine, that's your way.

You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory, while you were the one with all the strength.

A beautiful face without a name for so long.

A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero, and everything I would like to be?

I can fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed, but I've got it all here in my heart.

I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.

I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?

You're everything I wish I could be.

I could fly higher than an eagle, for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?

You're everything, everything I wish I could be.

Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,

for you are the wind beneath my wings,

'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.

You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.

Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,so high I almost touch the sky.

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank God for you,

the wind beneath my wings.

7月10日是他42岁的生日。在此想和他说"HappyBirthday。I had so much fun when I'm with you，谢谢你。" 突然想起1988年的一部电影《 Beaches / Forever Friend 》的Tagline，

Friends come and go but there's always one you're stuck with for life.