安順有棵樹。。。

我表哥家门前有块草地，草地有棵树，是热带常见的raintree。长得很茂盛。他们都住在安顺，也是我母亲的家乡。

你今晚要早點兒回來，promise?

這是我的姪兒。他來自PENANG，今年8歲。前一陣子，因為工作的關係而時常夜歸。他曾經因為等我的歸來而在客廳睡著了。就睡在他用自己喜愛的玩具砌成的四方城内。今天在我出門時。他要我許下承諾: "你今晚要早點兒回來，promise?" 我未婚，不曉得家里有個人在等著的心情是怎麼一回事。但是可以肯定的是那天，当我听到这么的一句话，我心軟化了。 原來被需要是可以那麼的令人感動。那天，我回去了。

看看手錶，才7點鐘。

20050922 - 0925 amazing THAI

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20050911 Sekeping Serendah...

蔡美珠－明眸皓齒，帶點稚氣。性格開朗，樂於助人，脾氣雖急躁點，做事卻認真，果斷，有主見，有魄力。

劉彩群－嬌小玲瓏，好動且愛笑，人緣好；個性開朗活躍，敢言敢，為本校圖書館管理員及救傷隊委員。

楊文嘉－外表文靜卻是個健談的人，性格坦率豪爽，惟性情急躁。對事物有其獨到的看法，華文不錯，是本校籃球代表之一。

胡月霞－外表開朗的她，性情率直，健談，略帶點孩子氣，時時露出排整齊的牙齒，使人有歡樂感，是班上的快樂天使，姑為同學們作弄的好對象。對事務有主見的她，不但寫得一手漂亮的字體，且擅長於寫作，也是一位盡責任的學長。

黃月華－竟然沒有簡介。

林麗婷－她是本校圖書館管理員，人緣極好，樂於助人且辦事負責，對英語頗有心得。

區寶君－清秀可人，人緣極佳，乃學長團文書，成績名列前茅，辦事負責，不失為一位可交之朋友。

張鳳如－怎樣也看不出她會集班長，主編，圖書館管理員於一身。個子嬌小，愛笑愛跳愛鬧。說話像機關槍那麼快。友善，誠懇，坦率。鬧情緒時堅持得可怕。上課常心不在焉。

謝秀莉－文靜，勤勉是她的美德，為人友善，樂於助人。做事盡責對攝影有偏好，是位可交之友。

陳健敏－個子高高，性情溫和，待人誠懇，人緣頗好，外表帶點書卷氣，對於功課也很認真，尤其是數理方面，對攝影頗有心得，擔任攝影學會黑房管理一職。

鄧肇基－喜愛數理。陸地能跑，入水能游的“燒雞”。是本刊的攝影師和本班足球隊的翼鋒。

楊淑芬－她有一雙亮麗的眼睛，臉上常掛著可愛的笑容，性情樂觀，平易近人，對功課從不馬虎，英文也不錯，做事認真盡責，與錢結下不解之緣，故連續擔任本班正財政多年，也是本刊副主席，學長團團員之一。

劉建明－戴著一副眼鏡，樣子斯文，喜歡開玩笑。和他在一起，妙語如珠，不怕沒得笑；生氣時不愛出聲。是足球愛好者。

王泰和－外表文靜，性格坦率豪爽，愛好開玩笑。不喜歡參加任何活動，喜歡獨來獨往。國語不錯，羽球是他拿手的運動。

郭炳華－他的身材修長，皮膚黝黑，交遊廣闊，運動是他的專長且功課也不错。

美玲－嬌小玲瓏的她，清麗，文靜，隨和及健談。為本刊的華文文書之一，成績也不赖。

李素珍－臉常帶笑容，人緣極佳，且樂於助人，處事認真，盡責，也是一名運動健將。

鄭毓通－為人健談，愛鬧且好辨，但沉默時卻令人難於置信。有點懶散的他，平時對功課雖漫不經心，但成績卻令人又妒忌又羨慕。

7749

29th May 2005, marked the 49th day since my brother, ShyangLong passed away on the 10th April 2005 and he was only 41. My family was in Penang to perform the traditional obligations for him as this is a day called 7749 day.

Time sure fly. It was just like yesterday when I'd received call from his son telling me that his dad was sick on that night, 10th April. How our family made the 4 hours trip back to Penang that night? How was his son and daughter reacted to the passing of thier's dearest BABI (a name that my brother was called by his son and daughter)? How was the ceremony held during his funeral? And all this moments will remain in the deepest place of our heart.

On the day when he was cremated, his coffin was carried along the route to crematorium by his acquaintances, showing thier last respect to my brother which'd surprised by many as this has not been a practise for ages. All of us were sad as we'd came to know that he'll be turning into ashes in a while, looking helplessly when the coffin slowly subsided and vanished into the flame at the crematorium.

I guess it is the most painful moments to say good-bye to those you love, who'd left without saying good-bye, not even a word.

After he has goned, my 2 sisters, myself and another brother, the youngest in our family, spent some times together, soothing, comforting, and retelling our shared memories with my elder brother, love filled the spaces between our words. A love so strong that, even in this deepened silence that followed our last good-bye.

Somewhere, somehow he is still very much vivid in our life.And by talking to his friends like revealing another side of my brother, the side known by his friends, not any dark, naked side that we unknown of. Little by little, we became reacquainted with this knowledgeable, gruffly loving man who once was an angry man, finaly found a lifetime of rage transform in compassion for his family and even for himself.

I still remember clearly how he'd cracked a joke about the shorter life span our family member has when I first striked and survived with a stroke episode in year 2000.

His only son, YiQuan, once said it sadly after looking at my family (my mom and the other 4 of us), while having breakfast at McDonald Gurney one day, "Grandma, you have 5 children, lost one and left only four." My mom weeped immediately after listened to what he had to say. Yes, it has left us with an incomplete feeling among ourself because there'll be a broken link - an age gap between my elder sister and me. It'll never be the same again, not anymore...In every conceivable manner, the family is link to our past, bridge to our future. If there is another life after this,I wouldn't mind to have him as my brother again.

Good-bye for this life and see you in another...

小男孩和小女孩

once upon a time, an angel in the sky,

made a comfort every night...　　

once upon a time, the angel loved me so,

it's a miracle in the snow,

my heart won't be cold...　　

my dear, you are my angel,

tell me what you know,

something should be told...　　

my dear,you are my angel,

tell me where you go,

I will breathe behind your love...

once upon a time, my angel give me life.